i sleep very late each night,
and everytime i fall asleep,
i'll keep waking up in between.
like, hourly.
..hah.

i somehow feel that i dont feel.
just, immuned -.
feeling nothing.
no soul?
just walking ard aimlessly.

that each day i put on some facade
to last me through the day
to allow me to face people.
am happy, really, but its just superficial.
on the surface.

i think i havent been truely happy for a long time.
and when will i? i dontknow.

i always appear crazy, mad, lame.
but deep down..there are things which no one sees/know.
i think i've split personality. hah.

if you think that i'm strong,
you're wrong.

i'm not, not okay.
i'm alright.
its just...certain things?
i dontknow either ar.

k nvm. its 2:28am now.
time to read my lit.
bye.